2Wonder4Ever

Monday, January 01, 2007:

Old Wisdom I found written on little pieces of paper so I wouldn't forget... Probably from Summer 2003 going to Iowa to check out a job...

First Meetings: (First meeting with Pat Hill 6/10/03)
First meetings are tricky. I try to read you and see you mirror my own questions.

The "Un"s as in, uncertain.
All the "un"s surface when my sail is in irons, waiting for wind to give me direction.

Potential good-byes.
And then, there is the feeling of loss. I'll never see this again... Snow on the Rockies, gorges and canyons filled with trees and Interstate... You... Familiar and not too dear. And, silly me, I cling to those like it is my last time. And, it may not. Then again...

The unknown, the adventure. The not knowing

Back to normal? What is normal?

Enjoy it, I tell my clients, myself. Feel the whole gestalt. Easier for them to do.

Let them go.

So hard to fight the urge to be a Rescue Ranger. Hard to believe the world doesn't fall apart because I don't play that role. Harder yet to believe that not doing is the right decision. Guilt sucks.

Is that it? Rescue Rangers want to be rescued !?!

"There is always real people underneath what we're trapped in." Laurie Campbell 6/8/01
2wonder4ever // 1:18 PM

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